Wednesday, January 30, 2008 @5:01 AM
Through these years , I have been asking myself something , Why do other people have so much friends from other classes , yet I dont have that much , why i just cannot make an effective effect into these people , why aint I popular ?.
However now i just believe popularity aint Important , most importantly is i uphold justice and not let popularity get over me . however also , being popular aint very good . I have Friends that is already enough . Someone may say this is just an excuse . yes it may be it in your eyes , however thats what you think . I chose to be what i want . what's wrong with being number 2 or 3 or 4 or even the last ?
Sometimes people ask me why am i so shy and i dont have the courage to make frineds with others or even my relatives , i dont talk to them ? I've been thinking about it and i think only god knows the answer , so if you want to know , die and go up and ask :)
So anyway , new year is coming , and i really dont know how to make it an enjoyable one . i often have people asking me a lot of questions during new year , and I just make a smile and answer them .
One more thing is i hate people asking me why am i like that . Why have you got to know why am i like that? I really dont know whats happening in my life , what if everything can go as the way i like? wouldnt it be good?
I have found out i hate a lot of things , I want people to understand me . Is not that i dont want , is just that i cannot .
All the Things i want , i will try my best to get it , i shouldnt be afraid anymore . Well thats for what i want . AS for popularity and sociallisation , lets leave it a side HEHE . I feel really happy in school and alone , am i getting emo? sigh ARH PLEASE i cant RESIST iT ANYMORE!!!!
Wa my teachers are so fierce , thier temper would soon be realeased , welll hope that it is not on me ... okay i got to go , byebye !!!
If you hear my song
would you understand how i feel?
would your eyes be filled with tears?
although it is an incomplete melody
That is my Real voice ...